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What Makes a Man Worthy?

I’ve always kept journals.

When technology wasn’t what it is today, I wrote in small notebooks.

am I worthy? caring for aging parents, being in love, celebrating a birthday, relationships, family ties, mothers and fathers, midlife

Once in a while I like to read what I’ve written so many years ago and bring the people I knew or the things that were happening to me during that moment up to date in my mind.

Some of the special things in my life are, by far, birthdays.

I love birthdays. It’s like celebrating New Year’s Day all over again.

It’s not about if you’re fat, skinny or bald, or what ever aches and pains you may have, or how you feel abouthow you look (don’t get me wrong everyone wants to feel and look great).

Today not only my family, but those who know us celebrate my husband’s birthday with great joy.  More so because he almost didn’t make it past his late twenties.

He had a failing liver and was diagnosed with cirrhosis when he was twenty-five. However, that’s another story to tell.

The point is with each birthday we not only celebrate his new year, but the blessing of life.

Health, love, friendship and life, “mis amigos,” are things many of us take for granted.

He has worried over the years  and an ever-present question has nagged him  with each coming birthday:

“Have I been worthy?”

Most of the time, I don’t even answer right away because I know part of his question is rhetorical and my opinion would be that, absolutely, he has been more than worthy.

However, I’ve always thought:

“Worthy of what?”

Well, it seems he’s been asking me all these years, if he has been worthy of living.

Going back to my life records (journals):

I’ve lived times where I would have wanted to kill him-

Others where I have loved him all over again-

Others where I was more than grateful to have him in my life as he cared for me when I was diagnosed with Myasthenia Gravis-

Others where I have seen him as a loving parent, treasuring each moment along the way-

Others  when he became a caring son for an ailing father, taking it to another level as he  ironed the clothes in which his Dad would be put down to rest, and:

Now caring for his Mom with everything he’s got in him. What can I say?

All of this couldn’t have happened because he wasn’t suppose to make it to his 28th birthday.

Today twenty years later, in the warm circle of family and friends he can surely feel that he has been more than worthy to have gotten a second chance at what we call life.

Read more from Maritza Martinez on her blog, Believing

Maritza Martinez

I'm a stay at home English teacher, mother of four (one daughter and three boys) and have been happily married to my high school sweetheart for over twenty-seven years. I love to read, write and garden. I strive to always be learning new things, and to reflect on life with its ups and downs. Books have always been my best friends and helped me overcome a very difficult childhood. I owe this to a great teacher who taught me to love books and vegetables and inspired me to become a teacher. I struggle with a chronic illness (Myasthenia Gravis) everyday, but I don't let it take control of who I am. I take life at a slower pace and am enjoying every minute of it.

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