Glenda shares regularly on her blog, Bloom, where this post was originally featured.
Examining myself today in comparison to the way I looked in 2014 – there are tremendous differences. In two years I lost half of my body weight. It’s incredible what you can accomplish when you put your mind to it. However, the extra pounds weren’t the only thing I was able to dig myself out from under.
A little over three years ago, I lay on an operating table, getting prepped for a procedure that was supposed to make my life more whole. When I woke from the surgery, I cried as the doctors solemnly told me the procedure was unsuccessful. Hearing this news, was I thought, the end of my world. In essence, it proved to be the beginning of a full-blown transformation. A transformation which not only opened the door to a new body, but a new way of thinking and being. This news set me on the course to discovering Glenda.
Off from work, I decided to start my days by journaling. Unfortunately, in the beginning, my mind was covered with so much junk from my life (past and present), that I was unable to clearly grasp my thoughts. I would write a few sentences and then find myself staring at the pages. This process continued for a few weeks until I decided to change my morning schedule to include an online fitness program with intense variations of exercise. I dived right in, selecting workouts that would challenge me physically. After my workouts (45 mins – 5x per week), I would turn on some quiet music and pick up my journal. I discovered my mind was crystal clear after I challenged my body. I wrote, and I wrote, and I wrote. Before long, I had pages upon pages of journal entries. I had begun strengthening my body-mind connection.
Within weeks, my life – the hurts, sorrows, joys, disappointments, hopes, and dreams lay before me. With each month of journaling and digging myself out from under the muck of my past, I was discovering a very strong woman. The strength of my mind transferred to the strength of my body, or perhaps my body to my mind. Nevertheless, with each day, I couldn’t wait to dive into my morning ritual (which I have lovingly dubbed, My Morning Massage). The results came when I became enamored with wanting to understand more about myself. I knew I couldn’t reach a deeper point of self-analysis until I had cleared my mind by working my body.
The woman of 2016 is a much different woman than the woman from 2014. Yes, there is the obvious physical transformation, but the most important transformation came in realizing I have the strength and the will to take on so much more than I ever imagined. For now, the hard work is done. I can put my shovel away. I am at peace.